the sisterhood of the travelling pants

today is my so called gimmick day... after facial treatment with rj, we went directly to ongpin to meet papa bear, theny and (can't believe it!!!) harold... we ate then wen't to sm manila where we simply chat and eat again...then ays joined us... it was fun though unfortunately harold just lost his big bag from the counter... don't worry girlfriend TL *** will comfort you...hehehe!

i just finish watching 'the sisterhood of the travelling pants' and i cried like shit. i was really touched by the story believe it or not. i know it's completely out of character for me but i guess that just simply happened when you find yourself in one of your senti mode.

its a story 4 friends who have never been separated eversince until one summer when they are about to spent the whole summer month in different locations, one in greece, mexico and south carolina, and the other one just stays on the same place. ( typical movie when someone needs to be left behind...heheh!).. before they go to different places, they found this pants that (believe it or not) fits all of them. they shared the pants. each of them will have it for a week. like a magic, the pants made wonderful thing happened to them. -- love, life, loss

i felt so envious of their relationship as friends for they treat each other as sisters, as if one completthe other. it's just nice to know that there are other people who loves you aside from your family. knowing that u have friends who will always love and guide u most of the time, if not all of the time. **sigh**

some people who had experience what it feels like to lose and yet they are not afraid to try again, unlike some who have lost nothing yet are very afraid to take the risk. it perfectly makes sense to me. i'm afraid of trying new things. i need to know what it is like, what if feels like to do something new. if u haven't noticed, im not an experimental type of person. i'm more of an observer and my actions will be based on my observations. i prefer to be the next one so i know what to do and beat the first one. i don't want to be the first because i don't want to show my mistakes. i'd rather learn from the mistakes of the others than of my own... COWARD? well i guess i am.... im still working on my flaw. in my way of thinking, why experiment when the outcome will definitely ruin your peace of mind. why prefer to travel with storm when you can travel peacefully with the ocean. AS FOR THE DEFENSE: why settle on the same boring calm ocean? why can't i try travelling with the storm. yes, it will be hard but from the hardship you'll learn and once you get thru it, you'll know what it feels like and know the value of success and excitement. y not take a risk? what will i lose? what am i afraid of? i'm just thinking, if im not afraid of death then what??? what would hinder me to try and take a risk?

alryt... enough... back to reality... just treat this as my hour of insanity...hehehe!

last day

today is my last day! as usual mixed emotions... i'm glad that i can have my vacation at last. i can sleep all day, i don't have to take calls. no more stress for 1 month...yahoo! i'm also sad coz i won't be able to see my friends often. i'll miss the chukles during breaks and seat shortage.i'll miss all the people, my tl, team mates, the others and ofcourse wave2! i'll miss shouting everyone's name on the floor especially when i call papa bear, when i slack around and call my fellow addicts --beej and theny. i'll miss mike and his chuckles about his boys and about work. in short, i'll miss my friends. the people i grew to love. as much as i want to stay, i have to make my own decision. i need to think ahead and plan my future. i remember what my college prof said: ' if u wants to succeed, u have to get out of u'r comfort zone'. i don't know why but i keep on remembering those words. i find them meaningful and true.

i had fun with theny, mr.lim and john today.. although we also ate and talked about the same old stuff --- chuckles on the floor.

while i'm doing this blog, im also chatting with my friend, from hs (julie), college(jing) and my officemates. jing is already referring me to aig but i told her to wait for a month coz i want to have my vacation. i know i might sound lazy but i know i badly needed this month break. i need to get back to my old competitive self. i need to reevaluate myself and focus.

after a month i hope everything will be OK and i'll be right on track... hopefully

making decisions

life is really full of surprises. just this morning i was with my team mates basically talking about nonsense things, about divorce, separation, sex, personalities, office rumors and the likes. they want me to retrac my resignation. honestly i want to say yes a while ago. i was tempted... oh my gosh, it's so damn hard to make a decision.

later on when i went home, i got this news that the girl who keeps on chasing my cousin is current at my cousin's house asking for his parents for them to get married! hahaha! talking about desperation... just like in the old days, it's the oldest head of the clan who will decide and agree if they'll get married... and so Ingkong Manuel said yes and in short there will/should be a wedding and include his mom who knows nothing in this world but MONEY. the only member of our clan who looks one. poor cuz! who would think that force marriage still exist! ... i just asked my mom not to do that to me 'coz i won't give a damn about our family's reputation and respect for elders and tradition if the subject at hand is my OWN life. No one, not even my father can force me to do something i will surely regret.

i just wish my cuz won't be stupid enough... make your own decision